It means to start Anew. From the beginning. This is what everyone tries to do right after New Years. Making resolutions. This is what I did in January 2010. I made great plans. Long list. I was smart though. I made two categories: one with achievable goals and one with long term goals on which I want to start working during 2010. Why am I writing about New Year Resolutions in mid July? Because, I recently found that awesome list. And I started laughing how ambitious I was in trying to control my life.

Well, you see for the past half a year my life has been everything but that list. It has been so much more. Because I made it so.  Because I have learned to feel free. And this newfound freedom expresses itself in my daily choices. I feel free to call whoever I want to call not caring about being misunderstood again. I feel free to make plans with people I’ve just met. I feel free to start dancing lessons (for which I will devote a lot in an upcoming post I have been trying to write for the past month or so). I feel super free to drive my ridiculous vintage bicycle with a friend who laughed at me for four hours. I feel free to eat just vegetables, although everyone nags me for my proteins. I feel free to go away. I feel free to stay.

And I feel free to go in the sea on a powerboat. And drive it! Me- the motion sickness, no muscles girl driving a powerboat. And feeling super good. Mindblowingly amazingly gooooood!

So, my dear Vanya. None of this was in your New Year Resolutions, right? We can sketch as much life plans as we want. Practice those amazing planning skills. Feel good about checking the “achievements” out. But the best things in life come unexpected. You just need to be ready and open to seize them. And fully enjoy. Brrrrrrrmmmm…